I hate commitment. I just cant understand why people are always forcing me to do things which i already told them i dont want. It just pissed me off. Those people are real naggy...Told them time and again, i dont want to go..For whatever reason..I need a strong foothold first before i go for anything. It is difficult. I dont want history to repeat itself. But how should i tell them ? Will they ever understand? I need time...Just give me more time..Personal time. I hate being involved in activities which i cant be bothered with. I admit i dont have much zeal which i am suppose to have.. what's the use of being strong...when i am not even strong even in the first place...Someone whom i really respect once said that i was strong ..Deep down i am just as weak...When the foundation is weak, it will collapse easily..i had been through it...Please just let me have more time ...To build on my foundation...i want to take things slow this time ..To really understand each step which I am going through...Please dont force me to things which i am not prepared for anymore...Otherwise i will need to go on a hiding again....