Encouraged , discouraged , encouraged , discouraged ?

A mixture of both.

I'm physically tired today. I went for a bible study with Ruth today and while she was talking , my head seemed to be spinning round and round. My eyes felt super painful. A number of times , I had allowed myself to trail off... I dare not said it is a fruitful session , but at least I grasped the key points. Later , I rushed to meet Kareen for diner at Little India. It was her pay day and she bought several pairs of ear-rings. But that was not the main purpose of the meeting. I wanted to find out what was happening to her life and why she had been missing church. I hope that there is something I can do for her.

We had our food at some Indian Cafe. Well , the FOOD was super shioK!!! Best Indian Food I ever eat there . Authentic!!! *Beaming with joy*

Then came a moment of seriousness. Kareen shared that she felt fakeness in people , even in church. People whom she thought were friends in the church camp seemed so different when they came back. She felt repelled by these people, but at the same time , not all gave her these feelings. Yongqing , for example, gave her trueness and genuinity. I guess no one is perfect.No one can cater to all our needs absolutely, even our christian fellows. This is because they don't truly know us , what more than to understand us? I'm not saying that all christian fellows are cold blooded , but I guess it takes time to build strong bonds. Well , I have to admit that my cell group is not super strong as most of them are usually busy serving different ministeries like ushering , praise and worship etc. My cell group have so many future leaders that we are often so busy to meet up except during CG or a meal after service. But I guess each individual is concerned about one another but it is just that we have a different way of showing it. To me , just a small prayer for me is a great way to show concern for me. To others , they may be more than that. I believe that God will let people like Yongqing attracts Kareen back to the church.

Tomorrow will be a hectic day for me. Going Whampoe to distribute leaflets to the residents there to invite them for the Fantastic Race. We had been trying to reach out to them and I am sure that God will do GREAT miracles in the region of Whampoe.

Modules bidding starts on Monday ....I just prayed that I will get all the modules I want....