Chilled… I need to chill myself to keep my cool.

The worst day ever…Even late at night, people want to bother with me with a topic, which I do not want to talk about, or should I say I want to avoid talking about?

Even in my blog entries, I do not talk about them anymore. I am tired of explaining myself repeatedly…People can’t give me an answer to my questions. All people care is giving me loads and loads of the knowledge, which they believed in.

To me, they are merely self-fulfilling prophesy. I have counter argued dozens of examples and I am tired of it. I am really sick of people trying to debate with me over the topic. They just go on and on. People just cannot give me an answer. All they do is ask me to believe…My answer to them – “why should I believe in the first place if I am not sure whether it exists?”

I tried to be soft in my words. However, the softer the words are, the more the explaining comes. It does no help. It only reinforces what I believe now because it makes me surer that no one can ever give me an answer…

Please leave me alone for a period of time….just treat me like a normal friend…It would be better for me…this is what I want if you ask me….