I feel so lousy ever since I am not sure when – maybe after the developmental lab presentation.

It sucks to the core.

Much as I hate to complain, I guess I still need this space to do some reflections.

I seriously think I am like a train, an exhausted train that has started a glorious journey but got tired on my way. I have no more energy left. Things are moving at a super slow pace for me now. I think I went too fast at the beginning and now I am at a loss of what to do.

A break is what I need and I took it – a three days break. However, at the end of it, I still feel not as motivated. It is the last race of the semester. I know I need to gear up, but I am lacking in the spirit to do so.

Sometimes, I feel like I am a shell, all empty inside – devoid of any feelings or expression. Life is like acting. The better you get at it, the easier it will to lie to the people around you that you are all right.

I need to snap out of how I feel right now. To be in the state I am at the beginning of the semester.

With the last remaining strength, I will make it happen.

Come what may.