Just got back from a job briefing with Biyun. Well, this job is something which I have never dine before and I supposed it will be fun with Biyun around. But this will also mean MORE bruises and pinches around my body. Last night , me , tricia, biyun and Kahfei went to accompany Kareen and to have fellowship together. Then out popped this question. WHAT IS The MOST important Thing in Your life now? Well, it sets me thinking. Then it suddenly dawned on me. The most important thing in my life now is my family. I guess even if all the people turn their backs on me , my family will still be there for me. From young till now, I have been the worry of the family. Had one major operation near my elbow , stitches near my chin and another visit to the hospital when I teared my cartilage due to a wrong landing while playing hurdles. All these while , my family have been there for me. But the perfect answer should be God. The really perfect answer. But to me , I have to be true to myself. At this moment , i am still bounded by petty concerns. Everyday is a learning experience to me. I hope that one day I will be able to say out loud that GOD is the answer.

Then another question came....What if one day God was to take away my family , will I still trust Him? I really have no answer to this and I know one day I will have to make a decision.

What my calling from God? To be a missionary? To lead worship? or to stay in the corporate world to contribute to the church? I have never thought of all these. I always have this wish to go to some rural villages in Thailand to teach the people there. Life there should be more peaceful than Singapore , I guess.

Then on the bus ride home came yet another difficult question by Kareen. Will I ever leave church? All the walls I have built around myself , all the "obligations" ....Will I ever leave the church? It's hard being a christian especially with so many persecutors around. I am still learning to love God more everyday and to try to tear down the walls surrounding me. I want to be more involved in church activities. I had been taking vocalist training . Will be going to Pangster house to learn how to lead worship tomorrow. I will start learning guitar after I buy one in a few weeks time. Walking with the God may be tough , but I guess with Him around me , Everything will be fine because He knows the END even before we are born.