My tears filled my eyes.....

My eyes had been emotionally drained from these few days , just totally drained from all the crying. Disappoinments , unhappiness and even unfair assumptions about me. I had built the wall of strength around me by the Word of God , but is that enough ? I am just a mere human , canI survive literally just disappointments after disappointments? This few days are just too hard for me to handle. God , please help me brave through all......

The first disppointment - from someone whom I had invited to the Fantastic Race. This week he told me he can't go due to some CCA commitments. God, I had prayed and fast for this person , why doesn't it work? Are there other plans for this person , or even other timing? Please reveal to me.

The second disppointment - No more six modules . I couldn't bid in round 2A although some of my friends are able to. Is it God's arrangement? I had really wanted to take a sixth module. Am I really not prepared for it when I thought I was?

The third disppointment - I was super pissed at one of my brothers in church. Throwing false accusation of me , saying I was self centred. IF YOU DON'T KNOW ME , PLEASE DON'T TRY TO PLACE JUDGEMENT OF ME. PLEASE REFLECT ON YOURSELF EVEN BEFORE YOU PASS ANY ASSUMPTION OF ME. I won't even bother to explain to you , just want to tell you to be more sensitive and stop behaving like a spoiled kid. I am deeply hurt by you.

The fourth disppointment- One of my best friends in church seemed to be drifting away and I am sort of affected by it. It just make me realised that even people who once had strong faith will fall. It is troubling for me.

Sometimes , I just yearn for a simple ,"how are you?".....


People Need The Lord

Every day they pass me by
I can see it in their eyes
Empty people filled with care
Headed who knows where
On they go through private pain
Living fear to fear
Laughter hides their silent cries
Only Jesus hears
People need the Lord
People need the Lord
At the end of broken dreams
He’s the open door
People need the Lord
People need the Lord
When will we realise
People need the Lord
We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong seems right
What could be too great a cost
For sharing life to one who’s lost
Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear
They must hear the words of Life
Only we can share