It's been around 1 week since I last blogged. Life is still the same... as usual..going to work , back home , msn then sleep. Life gonna change soon because I am ending my JOB this thursday after so long. I feel so Bored !!! There are so many things I want to do , like bunking at Xinyi's hse , learning how to swim , cross- stitching and shopping. Of course , I need to spend time to read my bible too. It's been super long since I last touched it. Going for Campus Crusade camp and Festival of Praise. Amen!!! What else should I do?? Heee...Loads and loads of gathering!!! Woohoo!!!! Jinhong just called me yesterday . Thanks to june. He asked me to organise an outing. Whahah...No waY..So i shifted the reponsibility to Jolene..Clever me!!! Anyway , I am super exhausted now...Need go sleep!!! With love to everyone !!!!

See the Cute owl!!! 

tada!!! us again!! 

trio!!! 

A Tribute to A Friend Who has Been With me For MORE than a DEcaDE...

Desmond Tan Jian Yang

Desmond ....Hmm.. what should I say about him? Corny , cheeky or even crazy? Well, I have known him for 15 years. That's a super long long time, considering I am only 20 this year.

Desmond has always occurred to me as someone who is super sensitive. I still remembered when we were in Primary 4 , he used to sit behind me. There were one group of us , Yewtow, lingjie and joy. Life was super enjoyable. We were cracking jokes practically everyday.

I guess Desmond is the only guy who knows me inside out...Sobzzz.. which means he knows all my dark secrets..which is bad coz he always threatened to reveal them during our gathering , but I know he is always joking lar. If he dares , I will kill him. It's great to have someone to rely on when you have problems. haha...Bravo to Desmond!!!!!!

TaDA!!! Me took off from work today due to the tiredness I had last night , not from work but from play....

Catching up is so fun. It's been a long long time since I met up with them....The gUys seemed so tall now.. OMG!! ESp Justin ... He used to be shorter than me .. Now i need to tilt up my head to talk to him. Everyone seemed to be living a better lives, more matured and stable. Missed them so much. It's like we are back to the good old times...when we had to line up for Mrs Tan to slap us , where we tried to be funny and talked while the teachers are not looking and making most of the teachers who taught us cry. Primary School is the most amazing time I ever had. I'm Glad my bonding with my prmary School Friends are still going strong....

It's hard to blog about your real thoughts sometimes ...anyway , all I can comment is... something fishy is going on , or am I imagining it....

Finally , I am sitting in front of my laptop typing my entry. Been too tired to blog recently. If you notice , most of my entries are just pictures which I uploaded...

Went for ACID camp recently . It was draining but super fun at the same time. Makes me have a different outlook of life. Well , it was a lot more fun than the previous mides camp I went. It was quite big scale this time. heee.. But i am not going to blog about it because it will take 3 days and 3 nights for me to describe all the activities...There is only one word to describe it ...cOOL!!!


WAs sitting on the bus back when this thought came to my mind. How many different kinds of friends do I have?
What Kind of Friend are you to me?

Type A

Friends whom I can interact and confide in. Even if we don't meet for a long time , the "Friend" chemistry will still be there. Friends who understand my every action and are cranky like me. People whom I am not afraid to share my secrets and personal troubles.


Type B

Someone whom I respect as a friend and trust that he or her will be able to sort out my thoughts or problem , without wanting anything in return. Solutions given by these groups of my friends are usually taken seriously and often , I dont joke with them because they are too serious.

Type C

Friends whom I dont really want to share my life with. Not that , they are bad people . Hee.. Sad to say , the problem lies with me. I cant connect with them . We usually talk about mundane things and whenever they ask me about more personal stuffs , I tried to divert to another direction. heee.. as a psy major, this is something I am real good at..

Type D

Friends whom I want to share my trouble with but they seemed to be too childish to understand what my problem is. Eventually , everything i said turned out to be a joke or a sarcasm....In the end , i gave up...hahaha..

TadA!!! Got this from Jennifer's Blog!!!!!




cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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My Admin job is supER Bored....Arrrggg!! The most boring job i ever had... Firstly , everything i do is repetitive..Arrrgg!!! How exciting can Data Entry GeT??? Secondly , NO FRIENDS....no one to talk to me..only occasionally does Alvin messaged me to have a short chat with me..Thanks... Thirdly , too many WomEN. Working under women is bad. They know you deep underneath. You cant Act CUTE or SWEET to get away from your mistakes...Sobzzz..It is a bad thing for me coz I am a "Sha Xiao Mei". Fourthly , too many PRC. Not that I am against them. Sometimes, i find them pitiful too...Having to travel so far to work here in this miserable company. Always getting scolded by the HR staffs. But , there is far too many ! Fifthly , I cant seemed to finish my job...loads n loads of them. My contract had ended but they still need me and i cant bear to said No, but that is not because i love my job , but because I am too soft hearted to said NO. The good thing is ... Time FLIES when you have things to do...And it means I seemed to age faster too...SOBZZZ..hhaha..Watever...Acid Camp TML!!! Gonna ENJOY myself...HorrrAY!!!

Finally met up with Layhwa and Peiying after being invited for so many times.. Hmmm.. i guess it has been 1 year since we last met... haha..Layhwa still looks the same.. Peiying.. More corny than ever....I really miss the time during first three months where we spent most of our time together. Back then , i was the lazy one. Among them , i am the one who often get scolded , especially by our math teacher. Math homework was a torture to me. Thank God, i have theirs to copy..hee..But now...I am the superior nerd!!! heee....We went to thai Express to eat . The curry is very nice...Yummy!!! Later , we went to shop around to look for Peiying's high heel. Felt so sad because by the time , i meet them after work , they had already bought a lot...They can really shop the whole Orchard down. Later , we went to Coffee club express to Chill out..Crapped through the night...We took a dozen of photos .... hahah.. Then we pretended we were SHE...hahha..Of coz , i am Ella..since i have the shortest hair..Peiying is Selina and layhwa is Hebe..It was real fun meeting up with them....Heeee..YEah!!! and we agreed to go Indo chine next week...Huraay..Another Gals nite out!!!


Me with my Short hAir with 2 side tails.. tat y My hair looks longer than i describe.. hee. Blowing kisses ...

TADa.. Me with My lst 3 mths buddies.. 

Just chatted with a friend in MSN . One of my closest friends which i had made since i came to Nus. Haizz... she told me she will not be majoring in Psychology anymore due to her poor grades in Psychology. Feeling quite lost now because i always thought we will be taking all psy modules together. I will miss her since we had been taking almost the same modules every semester. She's someone whom I really admired , for her courage , her straightforwardness and her attitude to stand up for justice. I learnt a lot from her , from how to treat a friend nicely to the different kind of alcoholic drinks which will make you drunk. Now i guess we both will have to put in more effort to meet each other when school term starts...sobzzz

My hair is SupEr SHORT now. Hmm.. about 2 inches above my ears.. haha.. It was the shortest length of hair i ever cut. My hair behind is even shorter , can even style now for the kind of messy look... Fringe... hmm... long one side while the other side looks so short that it seemed i dont even have fringe at all... I redone my hair too.. Gosh ! Was i shocked when i saw orange for my fringe, and just my fringe , mind you.. I nearly fainted. I looked too punkish... Bright orange ! Definitely not my style! No way! But frankly speaking , it suits the hair. In the end , i had no choice but to ask my hair stylist to redye my hair because it is too striking. i have a nice shade of brown now. i love My hair !!!! Anyone who wants a complete new look can get the address of my hair stylist from me. She definitely will live up to your expectation. Trust me!!!

But does it have to be winter when you're alone? 

it'll will always be summer when there's friends... 

It's hard sometimes, when people are demanding time from you , loads of time, for selfish reasons of their own.

Sometimes , people can only see themselves in the circle. the world just revolved around them. Nothing else. They feel that they are the king of the world and it is my responsibility to serve them , to listen to them , flauting whatever they want to say, be it happy or sad. My heart is numbed and devoid of all these. Sometimes , i feel that all they need is just someone to care for them , to listen to them when they are out of no where. But , are they feeling the way they should? Are they fulfiling their responsibilty or are they just seeking for a place for refuge?
If they really believe in what they should believe, they will be better off.It's just that it is different. The group is just different. Same stuffs , same talks and no change within. What the use? It is no use when people dont look out of their circle. For goodness sake , please GROW up! I dont feel encouraged at all when i am bombarded by all those FU*king things which make me feel bothered.

I'm glad to be able to take time off to spend time with my close friends these few days to have a some time off those bothersome creatures. Whatever it is, I hope they will be able to see things in a different light soon...

2 thumbs up for the Night Safari ...


It was a sweet and short night. Me , June and Hweexin went to the zoo yesterday. We had real lot of fun. We reached the Zoo at around 8. There were already large crowds of people , mostly tourists. The zoo at night was much more interesting as compared to the day. We saw a lot of animals like the spotted hyena which hweesim loves , the giant squirrels which seemed to have very comfy , fat tails like my bolster. The slow loris behaved like they really lived up to their name. Real sLow...Every action seemed to be in slow motion....If life is like that , that will be good. At least , we will have more time to think before we carry out any decision. Later , we walked round the zoo and saw loads of animals , like the bearded pigs which look real ugly, the leopard , bongo , babirusa , lion , bats , tarsier , hog badger etc... It was real cool. I love them all. the giraffes are back in town, but it was quite disappointing because when we went to visit them , they were lazing around and refused to stand up to show off them height. We also had close contact with the leopard cat and snow owl and even took photos with them. But we couldnt touch them because the zoo keeper said no no... Sobzzz.. But it was a cool encounter. Well, we were also lost a few times , haha... always have to look at the map to see where we were going coz we really had no idea. The otters were the cutest . They looked and behaved exactly like how we see them on TV. I simply adored them. They looked so contented living in the zoo. I want to be like them . heee.. touched the snake too. It felt rubbery and "unique-looking" ..hhaha.. Later we went to see the animal show featuring an animal which looks like a bear , a giant python and the loveliest of all , raccoons. I want to see them again!!! It's much more exciting at night. I am starting to miss all the animals now.. Sobzzzz.. heee.. i hope they miss me too...

Well, the night does not end just like that. Later , we went to have supper at Admiralty like we usually do when we bunk at hweesim's house. Prata , with tek terik , is the best combination with supper , and that's what we have.. Cool!!! After a full supper, we went hweesim's house. June was trying to connect her laptop to the wireless the whole night , but it didnt seemed to work. In the end , she kept growling and growling in a funny way. Yeah !! I managed to "leech" the music orchestra from Hweesi m finally. But... haizzz... I cant play some songs...Why!!!! But i will keep trying to find the solution. Anyone play the game before? It is real fun although it is an old game. Can send me the songs pls? More variety = more fun!!! We went to sleep around 5. My turn to sleep on the mattress on the floor.. next time , it will be hweesim.. haha..chatted about what we see ourselves doing in the future...Well, I guess it is quite risky for june to sleep on top of you because she will attack you with hweesim's piggy soft toy when you said something wrong. hee.. Woke up at around 12.. lazed around , played a few games and msn before heading home... heee...here i am ... blogging at my house...soon to fall alseep...ZZzzzzzzzz

Together 

What if one day you found out that the Darkest secret you ever had is no longer a secret...and the secret now is that you do not know that we know our secret because we want to keep it dark....


If you know what it means.. I just want to tell you there is no point hiding....WE know....

I'm super bored now, so i shall just blog about what me and yongqing on our long walk home yesterday...

Well, I'm not sure how we got onto the topic... i guess it started when i vaguely said than I dont like to share with people my trouble. if you have notice. i usually do not discuss my problems indepth with anyone. I will just tell vaguely about my problem. Anyway, i guess it was a wrong move. Because after that , he kept rattling on about some "DA DAO LI". Yawn...In the middle of the night....Well, I am not one to just accept what people ask me to do. Anyway...I started bickering with him that...actually a problem is how you perceive it sometimes. The same kind of matter....one may see it as a problem while the other may see it in a different light. Solutions given by friends are just general solutions which we , ourselves are able to think of. Usually , when people ask for opinions on how to solve the problem, they themselves, would already have a set of solution deep in their heart. What they really need are confirmation of their decisions to make them feel better. Take this analogy for example, usually when people go shopping and see something they like, they would already make up their mind to buy it. But they will still ask their friends for opinions to double confirm their choice. For me, when i decided to do on the solution, I will not regret my choice. Even if i do, i deserve it coz I was the one who had thought of the solution.

As a psychology major, i know that the more you relate some unhappiness, the more it will be encoded in your long term memory. In the long run, it means that you will be more unhappy since you will keep brooding over the problem.

Thirdly, the reason which i Dont like to share is because i'm quite forgetful. I'm one who usually forget unhappy things quite easily. I guess most would be irrational when one is angered or hurt. Therefore, one may sprout hurtful things about the other party which one would regret when one cool down. Thus , i feel that it is better to keep one's trouble to oneself. On one hand, you are able to prevent yourself from saying things which can harm people. On the other hand , it will prevent the people who are listening to your problems to spread any kind of rumours about what you have said about the other party. ( It has happened to me once.. so i m ultra careful now)

But then , all these which I said may be applicable to me. However , different people have different personalities, and I guess there is no one algorithm which fits all. Some people are the more "sharing" kind while some are the more "isolated" kind like me...Whatever it is. as long as you like your way of handling problem, Just Do It Your Way...

Hillsongs is Coming to Town!!! Anyone interested.. 

Read through June and hweesim's Blogs and realised i'm the only one who never mention anything about our get together yesterday. Heee.. so i will talk about it now. I was supposed to meet Anabelle and june for lunch. But the 2 Little pigs woke up so late. In the end . i decided to go SIM with hweesim to pay her deposit. June joined us too. We had a wild talk on the bus journey there. Later , we went to Holland Village for a drink. Hee.. June had her lunch at some horFan coffee house while hweesim and me had dianxin. The custard Bun is fabulous...with the custard gooing out with every bite. TCC is our next stop. The service there was good compared to their branch at Orchard Point. At TCC , we discussed an interesting topic...which is to be kept a secret. But I felt like puking when i heard about it. Blab!!! i hope it is not true... Eeek!!! On the whole, I had a fun time. Horray .. n we are going to night Safari on Fri ...YEah!!!!

Well, for today, i had dinner at SakuRa with my family and Auntie's family. I missed my cousins...They are still so cute. It was an international buffet...Yummy...I ate 2 oyster, and loads of salmons..They are so fresh...Didnt really eat much of the rest coz my stomach fell queasy after eating the latter...I love the soup there ..So nice and deeply flavoured...Two thumbs up for the terpanyaki there...Overall , i will give them 3.5 stars out of 5 ...Yummy!!! U'll should try it...

Cell group was FUN today. Lots of sharing sessions.. James was the leader today. It was really a fruitful meeting. I got to know them better. Later we went for supper at Ang mo kio. When we had finished , it was almost past 12. Tricia and Biyun had to run to catch their train. Me and Yongqing did a silly thing. We walked back from Ang Mo kio home. Shared a lot along the way. Super tired now... Need a real good rest...

Cell group was FUN today. Lots of sharing sessions.. James was the leader today. It was really a fruitful meeting. I got to know them better. Later we went for supper at Ang mo kio. When we had finished , it was almost past 12. Tricia and Biyun had to run to catch their train. Me and Yongqing did a silly thing. We walked back from Ang Mo kio home. Shared a lot along the way. Super tired now... Need a real good rest...

Life on Fire 

My Resolutions for the NEXT SEMESTER

Thinking of setting my goals now for the next 6 months since I want to remind myself every now and then what I have promised myself.

1) I feel like taking 6 modules. But havent really decided yet since I will be taking a lot of level 3000 modules next semester. Till then , I want to get 2 As and 3 Bs for next sem. Me, shena and Weixin have decided to be ultimate nerds next sem to study smart plus early to prevent crammimg at the end.

2) I want to have more discipline to attend church on time because I am always late.

3) I want to do my best for church's choir practices.

4) I want to have more time to myself .

5) More studying time , less Msn . ( haha)

6) I want to express my feelings and opinions instead of hiding them.

7) I want to learn to play guitar. Havent really got the time to learn since a lot of things have been happening like the tuition centre.

8) I want to have more time to spend with people who needs me.

9) I want to forget.

Cant think of any other goals now. Will update them again.

Life is so boring.

I'm sitting in front of my laptop, with absolutely no aim of doing anything. Raining so heavily right now , and everyone is out, leaving me to guard the house. No nice shows on television , no interesting VCD , no nothing. What am I going to do later with loads of time at hand before cell group? Am i suppose to rot at home ? Cant really go anywhere since it is raining cats and dogs. I hate bringing umbrella since i always forget to bring them back. No shopping since i havent get my pay. Msn is also so boring during the day since all my friends are either at work or at bed. Arrrggg!!! Am i suppose to read? Not really in the mood now. So bored.







I don't want to go. Please dont force me.

Escalated...

Things had been smooth for me, so far as it seems. Results are released today. I'm so glad that joy and me did better in Stats than what we thought we will. It has been a real blessing from God. I'm quite satisfied with my Caps although there is no improvement, but then again, I rather have no improvement then deprovement.

My brother just broke up with his girlfriend. My mum had a talk with him today. It was the first time i hear him crying. He must have really loved the girl a lot. He was so non-chalent when he broke up with his first girlfriend. But i guess life still have to move on. I hope he will get over it as soon as possible. It hurts me to see him so sad too.

I'd joined the church choir. Amen! Going for my first lesson on Sun with Jingting. I'm so excited about it and I'm sure I will have a wonderful time with Jingting around since we are both Cranky.

Took 2 days off before extending my contract. Will start work again on Mon. Life is so boring when you are working , plus the journey is so far.

I have been thinking this few days. Life will be real bored after XXX graduates. No more chance of me bumping into him. Sobzz..life is so meaningless in Nus now.

I decided to be a meanie too. More time for myself. Less empathy for people except close ones.

Last of all, i just wan to express my displeasure for those Aunties who are so lazy to take out their transitlink cards. They are the ones always wasting people's time, taking such a long time to scan their cards through the ultra thick handbags, holding up the quenes. Blab!!!


Ok.. I had summarised what happening to me recently in these few paragraghs.. yawn..