Recently , everyone in church have been asking me...

Everyone : HEy , how your studies? Still can cope a not?

I had a guilt look on my face. I really have no idea, so I replied ..

Qing: Hai hao ba.... I also don't know. This semester is too tough.

Of course , I will quickly divert their attention to something else. I just don't feel like talking about my studies with anyone. I'm quite sick of people who bother me about my studies. I know they are concerned and I am greatful for that but I can be just thinking about my studies 24 hrs a day. arrrrggg!!!!

Another usual conversation people alway have with me..

People : Liqinggggggggggg...I got so many essays to rush. I'm dead. How how how?

These kind of people ...well, I guess I have no idea what to do because I understand the stress they feel. All i can said is ...

Qing : Amen! We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.

Actually , I'm quite scared. Am I back to the old me where studies are not so important to me ?anymore? Is my studies a second class citizen to me now? I dread to think of that and I don't WANT to. I need my ultimate Nerd's SPIRIt!!!!!!!! I want to be nerdy qing!!! I am going to study now....Chop chop.. no point talking here without any action...

I must jiayou!!!!

Arrrrggg!!!! What's wrong with me?

I went for my tutorial happily today to realise that I actually missed one tutorial without realising it. When I saw TUTORIAL 5 on the projector screen , I thought my eyes were playing a trick on me. And me , hands still holding on to tutorial 4 .... Gosh !!!!

I had been so busy with deadlines and midterms that I couldn't even keep track of my scheduled tutorial slot. I just feel like shooting myself to death at the instance. For that stupid module, tutorial attendence is super important because people usually do very well for midterms and projects. This is one of the modules where attendence DO count. What a way to start my day!!!!

Feel quite lost too. Today will be my last CG meeting before the restructuring. I'm not sure why I am feeling this way. We will still see each other in church but still...It is different when we really sit down and share with each other. I know we have to move on and I know God has a purpose for everyone. But I just hate adjusting to new changes.... I have a strong feeling that I will be transferred to NUS cg. It is not a bad thing but I don't want to see NUS people all the time, plus the CG is set up around more than 2 months. I just feel like an intruder....

I guess I really need sometime to really evaluate my life......

God , please give me your blessing....

:( :( :(

I feel so frustrated now. Just feels like breaking down.

The report is really difficult to write and I have no idea how to carry on. How can I link everything to make it complete?

All my group members seemed so busy with their work.


There is no one to help me. Even people who are not in my group are not sure of what the TA is asking.

Damn pissed now. Total waste of my study time.

Thank God for the setback. It had taken away from my pride and has once again stirred up my fighting spirit.

I must work real hard for my exams now. Jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!!!

Someone commented I have a lot of time , to blog everytime.
Well , do I really seem so? Humph!!!
I guess it is just a matter of time management and relying on the power of God to make things right...

I had my stats presentation today. Our group was quite funny , as usual. I like all my group members. They are all so fun to be around with , especially Lacretia who keeps bickering with me. But despite the fact , I bought her a Christian bookmark today to encourage this heavenly sister of mine since exams are coming.

Guess what , the girls in my group managed to save a book in distress yesterday whilst doing our project. The book was kidnapped and we had to go all the way back to the forum to find it because we were quite worried for it. In the end , we managed to rescue the hostage and earn a pending meal at munchie monkey.. Waahaha ( well , this may not make sense to you if you are not involve in the incident)

Finally met up with Biyun today. It's been a long time since I fellowshipped with her. We spent most of our time sharing and praying for each other. Well, it was truly fruitful and I could feel the presence of the holy spirit when we prayed. Although I had sacrificed my studying time, but I guess it is worth it, drawing nearer to God each day.

I was quite pissed today because someone had criticised one of my bestfriends who had been with me since secondary school. But there is nothing I could do because what that someone said was true. I just felt sad that things are the way they are now , beyond the point of redemption. But I just pretended I knew nothing of that sort because I know if I am to counter agree on it , it will no longer be a unfounded "truth". Damn , I wish my friend knows what people had been talking behind her back.....

Do not forget to entertain strangers , for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.

Hebrews 13:2

What a wonderful way to put it. Many a times, we are so bounded by our work that we don't even have time to care about people around , let alone atrangers. Everyday , at least one person who walked past us would have something to share. Have we totally been so engrossed in our work that we don't even notice or are we just pure selfish creature ?

Well, I have to admit I am no angel. Sometimes, I would just totally ignore whatever I saw , whether it is pleasing or not , to the extent of being cold blooded. Sometimes, it is just hard to really care - to put in 100% for your friends or even your family. There is just so much I can do.

Many angels had probably slipped past me , without me knowing. The bible quote really had an impact on me. I just feel that there is much more I can do. Studies have robbed me most of my time and even energy. Now , I shall devote my time all to God , to listen to His calling and to even reach out to all my friends.

Yesterday , while I was reading the bible, a bible quote just came to my mind.

We love because he first loved us
1 John 5:19

It is truly amazing. This is something which I really need to learn. To love people. People above self. To give my best for God, for the people , for my family and even my friends.

A truly learning Child of God....

Sick .... been sneezing all day long. I cant seem to concentrate for my stats revision. Less than 1 month left before I face doomday. Boo!!! I must be optimistic. Hypnotising..... I can do it!!!

I feel like going drinking. It's been a long time since I went. I miss all the drinking nite at hweesim's house and june's hall...Silly silly silly... heee.. Me and Jingting have already made a pact to go club after my exam....Woohoo...

Life has been good.

I had a fruitful day today.

Well, I woke up around 10 plus today. I wanted to spend the day studying , so I decided to set off to coffeebean at Paya lebar Singapore post because I simply cant study at home. Too many temptation.

Before I could warm my seat , Weiyang called me to ask me to go Whampoe to collect some money from the residents for the JB trip. He needed a female to accompany him because it was quite inconvenient for him. Well, I agreed readily. In the end, I spent more than half of my day there. It was fun because I saw another side of Weiyang. Not as stern as what I thought he would be and he is really good with the elderly. Tricia , yongqing and the other working adults -were there too. Great reach-out... haha..

God is good. In the evening , I met Jingting to study and we found the perfect place. Kidz Club corner at Singapore Post. It was truly amazing. The perfect place for studying. It is super quiet and there was no distraction there. Plus there were a lot of colorful chairs which will brighten up your day...heee.. toys and more toys for you to play when you are bored... Yeah!!! It was near my house too. Heee....Finally found a place where I can mug...Coool!!!!!!

Till then , I need to do my report now... arrrgg!!!!!

Nites to all....

the colorful kiddy chairs 

the front 

the backview of jingting 

I changed my blogskin!!!

It's so hard to find some skins which I really like. Well, in the end , I settled for this present one.
A baby blue blog will brighten up anyone's day.

I spent the whole day in school doing project today. As usual , I skipped my 8 am lecture. I didn't wanted to go for my cognitive tutorial today, but as it turns out, I met my lecturer when I was walking down the stairs, and he even said "hi" to me. What "good" luck I have. No way can I skipped my tutorial then. Anyway , I went and spent 1 minute thinking and 44 minutes drifting in my lala land after I answered his question. Well, I have to say that he is quite handsome. Yupppie.. Charming and filled with charisma. The kind of guy whom girls will fall secretly in love with....haha.. but not me...too intellectual for a simple girl like me.

I didn't go shopping yesterday. Major turn-off because huiyi was too tired after her lectures ...I missed the bag which I had laid my eyes on. I had been thinking about it for this few days. Humph...I will get my hands on it maybe one Sunday after my church service.

I need to study. Where is my fighting spirit? Lost somewhere. Am I too optimistic or am I just pure conceited about my preparation? Less than 1 month around. I must work hard!!!!!! Jiayou to me!!!!

EuniCE Makes My Day!!!

It was super funny today. My group was supposed to present the questions which we had to ask the rest of our tutorial mates. Well, i guess most of our questions stumped our fellow classmates because most couldn't give the answer.. woohoo.. It was fun watching them racking their brains.

Eunice was super funny. When she was supposed to be presenting the answer for one of the questions, she misread water being viscous as water being vicious. I nearly died laughing when I heard that. haha.. Till now, I still feel it is super funny at that time of the moment . Imagine water being vicious ...hahah.. maybe it will turn poisonous and kill us. Presentation went quite smoothly today.

Now , i am stucked in the library doing my essay for one of my modules. Yippee yippee yeah yeah. Going shopping with huiyi later. I want to buy a new bag!!!!! Don't ask me why. I just feel like splurging. Retail therapy , I guess....It's time now to pen down my thoughts.....HERE I COME

Super painful eyes infection again. I'm not sure why, But I always handle my contact lens with care, why do I have eyes infection again? And it was aggravated by my crying yesterdsy during the sermon.

Yesterday's speaker was a prophet who could prophesize things which were quiet accurate. He prophesize for me. There are things which he said that I don't understand. There were 3 things he said about me.

Firstly , he said he knows I had been through a lot these 2 years and I have to learn to forgive people who had hurt me in the past. Well, the first part was true. Since junior college , I had been distancing myself from everything, putting all my focuses on studies. I was under extreme stress back then. For the 2nd part , I did not really understand. Forgiveness? Have I not forgiven anyone? After the service, I went to ask him about it. At first, he bought up child abuse. It stumbled me because I have a stable family since young and everything was a bliss for me. Then he said it could be that friends had taken "advantage " of me and as time goes by, I feel numbed and had taken things as it is , that there is really nothing I can change. Well, I guess that was true. Sometimes, i just feel so taken for granted. When people have problems , they will come to me, when their problems are solved, I became the lowest of their piorities. Sometimes,I can be judgmental and rely on past experiences that people who come to me will not change even if I give them advice , and often I am proven true. I am quite sick of people dwelling in the past. It pissed me off why they can't just snapped out of their misery. Life is short. Why are people just troubled about worldly things?

2) The second thing was which he prophesized for me was that there was something personal about me which I feel that there was no chance of turning back. I need to learn to let go and have confidence that God will be able to take away the thoughts which will come back and haunt me every now and then.

3) Thirdly, he said that I am an encourager to people around me. And I have a gift of praying for people who had been hurt or feel empty or even unworthy inside. I have to learn to use it to bless the people around me.

In the next 3 weeks , he wants me to really to reach out to God so that I can have complete healing in terms of physical , emotional and spiritual.

I have faith that after 3 weeks , I will be a brand new me.

A wonderful day to begin with. A bright smile. An interesting lecture. A nice hot tea.

Today is Uncle Weiyang birthday. We bought a slice of cake for him. Chocolate brownie. But we ended late today. In the end , we can only sing a birthday song to him before we all rushed off to our respective venue. But , overall. it was fun!!!

Something just came to my mind. Recently, I found out that most of my friends are no longer virgins. Well, I'm not sure how to comment on that. But I just feel that whatever you do, please bear in mind the consequence. This post may relate to you , or even incur guilt in you. Some may feel that they can do what they like. True. No one can control you. You are in charge of your future. One wrong move can change your future. It's no use thinking that what you did is wrong without putting it into action. There is still hope for change although some things are irreversible now. You are responsible for your own body. Don't ruin it just for short term passion. It's not a matter of fun , but a lifelong memory which will come and haunt you every now and then. You know what it means.

There is really nothing I can help in this area except to tell you the serious consequences. You may not know that people already know about you but is keeping mum. Things spread fast. And it is not good for anyone's reputation. This do not earn respect from people but shame. I know I may be harsh here , but I hope you know what you should do from here. Continue dwelling in this activity and be torment by these thoughts in the future or put a stop to it right now. Absolute stop. No more compromising or you will have to bear the serious outcome...If you need anyone to talk to , you can find me. I may not offer solution , but I can help pray for you...I hope you will think twice before doing anything now.

The Oyster
There was once an oyster in the large vast ocean.
Along with all the other oysters in the world in this vast ocean,
this oyster had friends and family, lovers and enemies alike.
But many did not know about this oyster. No.
This oyster was different, different in a sad, helpless way.
As shiny and beautiful as it looked on the outside, this oyster had no
pearl.
How treacherous it is, having no pearl, especially to an oyster.
Looking around, the sad oyster saw every other oyster
showing off their glorious pearls inside.
All but this oyster, had its mouth closed because it knew.
It had shaken and wriggled itself and it felt nothing inside.
It was empty.
Many months and even years went by, and with each passing day
the oyster felt emptier and emptier.
One day, the oyster decided to open up to his friends and family and
loved ones,
in the hope that it could seek love and understanding from them.
And when it did, a grain of sand fell into the oyster.
It was only then that the oyster understood,
that to make a pearl, it had to first open up.

The end.

Uploaded photos from settlers cafe!!!!
Super fun there...All the unique games and cozy atmosphere. But the food sux!!! Anyway, the theme there is not about the food but the games. Highly recommended. haha...Too lazy to describe...Enjoy the pics...


What a Super BAD Semester....

Social Psy project was ScrEWEd up ...Social Psy midterm was damn tough.... Stats midterm sux big time!!!!

Arrrrggg!!!!!

I'm so bored in school now. Just finish my midterm. I was like... damn...it seems like I know the answer but at the same time, there were so many similar answers that I doubt my own judgement. What the $#% ! Now waiting for Hoiting to come to carry out the research experiment with me. 25 students....Hope all will run smooth. No more cork up. Weiyang was supposed to carry out the experiment with me , but in the end . he cant because his kid need tuition..Thank God Hoiting can make it .. otherwise I think I will just die there. Now I have 2 laptops with me.. horray!!! One's mine and another Weiyang.. Since he cant be in the group physically.. well .. I guess he can contribute his laptop...

Yeah!! I will be going Ikea with Xinyi later...I didn't bring my handphone. Hope she will be able to contact me...haha..I need to complete my burgerking survey.. Tomorrow is the deadline. If it is not done by then , I think I can just jump off and die.. haha....

Having serious PMS these few days.. Thank God it is finally here. Otherwise , I will just sulk all day long and shoot whoever comes my way...Blab blab blab blab.....

Feel like eating junk food.. but too heaty...Silly me..left the herbal tea my mum cooked for me in the taxi..Think she will kill me if she find out...Been having severe short term memory this few days... haha...

Ding ding ding...Need go charge my laptop liao....cya friends

the birthday gal... 

monopoly kings?? 

wassup? 

engrossed...with FOOD 

last pic of yong qing before he go home 

the final 5 

Pretending to pray.. haha 

new members? 

take @ 

funny faces 

taDA!!!! 

the big millionaire 

the table of wonder cards... 

where is yong qing??? 

Say cheeze 

INVITATION

All are invited. Will be going to Settlerscafe on Friday. Hope all of you can come !!! It will be a night of fun , with all the games and food !!!!

Date : 7/10/05 (Friday)
Time : 7.30pm meeting at Clarke Quay Mrt

Contact me by phone or email @ liqingchia@yahoo.com

Waiting to see all of you..Below is some of the previews of the cafe...

fun fun and fun....jus an expectation 

cool !!! 

Strawberry is the love of my life... 

preview 4 

Preview 3 

preview 2 

preview 1