Stats 2 is so hard.I just don't understand the SPSS programme. I Learnt my lesson, never skip any stats lecture.I skipped one and now I seemed to be lost in the deep blue sea.REading doesn't seem to help.Mind blocked.And I need to rush 4 tutorials this week...I hate even week.

Well, Loyalle bought his friend to church today. He was sort of unique in a way because he was deaf. It was quite funny because we were doing hand signals all the time. It was a real challenge to communicate with him. Kareen came today too . Amen! But I guess some people were quite troubled over the email which she had sent out. I guess things are quite different now. Tension seem to have built up recently in my cell group. I don't understand why too. Wish there is something I could do to ease the tension. Our dear chengboon is also leaving us on Wed to continue his studies. It has been a joy to have him around for 2 months. I guess I will miss him when he is gone.

Today , my sister told me that she will be graduating soon from ITE. She wants to continue to study nursing in Poly but her GPA does not meet the criteria. Studying overseas is out of question although I know she really want to go. One of the reasons is financial constraint. Expenses overseas is not cheap. I am already depleting my parent's saving for my university fee and my parents want my brother to carry on studying when he comes out of the army because they feel that a diploma is not enough for a guy nowadays. This means money need to be save up. Suddenly I feel that by going to the university , I seemed to have deprive my sister of a chance to further her studies. Sometimes, I just wish that there is something I can do to help her. Now , I hope that I will do well in my exams and to earn more money in order to send her overseas to study next time when I have the capabilty....

Once again... Miss Blur had reformatted her laptop. This time , my anti-virus scan was outdated but I didnt update it. In the end , some malicious viruses came and attacked my laptop.. sobzzz...My poor anti-virus program was eaten up by the virus. The computer center person -was shocked too when he couldnt find any anti-virus program in my laptop...

Well well, there is really nothing I can do except to reformat my laptop. The worst thing was I didnt have any backup for my data. All Gone..my photos , my songs , my games...Give me a break....the silly thing was ... I lost my wallet in the same week...2 misfortunes....But I don't seemed or feel really upset ...Maybe I am too immune to it...

Recently , I had a phobia of receiving smses and emails...Every sms means that there is something I have to do...This week had gone just like that.. I feel that I seemed to have waste a lot of time..I just realised that mid term break is in 3 weeks time.. when I had just started my tutorial..Whoosh.. that is real fast...OMG!!! Anning mentioned to me that exam is only 2 months round the corner...Arrrgg!!! That is fast.. I need to see a musical performance for my module.. And I haven't even come across any thing I like...

Tomorrow will be another busy day for me....Arrrggg!!! need to start studying ...I want to begin a FRUITFUL nerd's life!!!!!

HEY FRIENDS..cAN LEAVE UR BLOG LINK ON MY TAGBOARD...LINKS VANISHED WHEN LAPTOP GETS REFORMAT...:p

People Need The Lord
Every day they pass me by
I can see it in their eyes
Empty people filled with care
Headed who knows where
On they go through private pain
Living fear to fear
Laughter hides their silent cries
Only Jesus hears

People need the Lord
People need the Lord
At the end of broken dreams
He’s the open door
People need the Lord
People need the Lord
When will we realise

People need the Lord
We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong seems right
What could be too great a cost
For sharing life to one who’s lost
Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear
They must hear the words of Life
Only we can share

Today was a long day...School starts at 12 for me today , all the way to 8... heee.. with 4 hours break in between. I was supposed to be studying during this period , but I slacked the whole 4 hours. I guess I still haven't got into the studying mode.

Finally bought my cognitive textbook. This is the first time I spent so much on books , close to $300....I'm so broke. God, Please bless me through the rest of the week.

I feel so tired now... Organising the potluck for this fri... It sucks when people don't reply whether they are going a not...Arrrggg!!! Please REPLY me!! I don't mind if you are not going.. because that is your loss , not mine...

Tutorials , tutorials, tutorials, when will I ever be ready for you?



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Wow.....looking at my past blogs , I realised how long I hasn't been blogging.

I had been so busy this week. The "Amazing Race" had just ended. School had just started. The Synovate adidas project finally came to an end yesterday. Reachout to Whampoe residents start tomorrow. Tutorials start next week. And me? Still lagging and living in my holiday mood.

Not sure why , but this few days , I had been feeling real tired for no apparent reasons. Missing lectures , falling sick , turning down and forgetting lots of lunch appointments with friends...Arrrggg!! Sorry to those who are in this category.

Suddenly, I had a urge just to hide in my house forever, never to come out again. Everyone seemed to pressurise me these few days. I have been living life aimlessly....lost the urge to study......Sometimes, it's hard....to pretend to be happy and strong when deep down , you are bogged down by super lots of things which you absolutely can't share with anyone.... God , please guide me in the direction ...and reveal to me my calling and life...

Sometimes, I just don't understand people. Why do they like to intrude so much into people's privacy....even to the extend of asking me to send my school time table to arrange for lunch appointments...I DON'T WANT TO!!!! but it's hard to refuse because of the purpose behind the appointments...to build stronger fellowship.....I need some private time too....I am not perfect ! You are not perfect ! No one is perfect! I am selfish with my time....Please give me some peace...

I am so stressed now...Vocalist test is 2 weeks down the road...I admit I hasn't been practising much...Things are different now...One of my close friends is drifting away from God ...What can I say , even do to make you come back? No idea. God , please do your will.

There are so many things to do ...so many friends to care for...so many readings to catch up...so many projects , so many commitments. So little time.

My tears filled my eyes.....

My eyes had been emotionally drained from these few days , just totally drained from all the crying. Disappoinments , unhappiness and even unfair assumptions about me. I had built the wall of strength around me by the Word of God , but is that enough ? I am just a mere human , canI survive literally just disappointments after disappointments? This few days are just too hard for me to handle. God , please help me brave through all......

The first disppointment - from someone whom I had invited to the Fantastic Race. This week he told me he can't go due to some CCA commitments. God, I had prayed and fast for this person , why doesn't it work? Are there other plans for this person , or even other timing? Please reveal to me.

The second disppointment - No more six modules . I couldn't bid in round 2A although some of my friends are able to. Is it God's arrangement? I had really wanted to take a sixth module. Am I really not prepared for it when I thought I was?

The third disppointment - I was super pissed at one of my brothers in church. Throwing false accusation of me , saying I was self centred. IF YOU DON'T KNOW ME , PLEASE DON'T TRY TO PLACE JUDGEMENT OF ME. PLEASE REFLECT ON YOURSELF EVEN BEFORE YOU PASS ANY ASSUMPTION OF ME. I won't even bother to explain to you , just want to tell you to be more sensitive and stop behaving like a spoiled kid. I am deeply hurt by you.

The fourth disppointment- One of my best friends in church seemed to be drifting away and I am sort of affected by it. It just make me realised that even people who once had strong faith will fall. It is troubling for me.

Sometimes , I just yearn for a simple ,"how are you?".....


People Need The Lord

Every day they pass me by
I can see it in their eyes
Empty people filled with care
Headed who knows where
On they go through private pain
Living fear to fear
Laughter hides their silent cries
Only Jesus hears
People need the Lord
People need the Lord
At the end of broken dreams
He’s the open door
People need the Lord
People need the Lord
When will we realise
People need the Lord
We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong seems right
What could be too great a cost
For sharing life to one who’s lost
Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear
They must hear the words of Life
Only we can share

I slept the whole day today because I was super super super exhausted from yesterday and the day before. I will be squeezing 2 days of events in one blog entry.

2nd of Aug

Audrey's birthday celebration. We had planned a SURPRISE birthday party for her. In the morning , I woke up early to prepare some mashed potatoes for the party. As usual , I was late so I had to take a cab down all the way to Shena's house at bukit batok. Most of them were there when I arrived...haha.. but I didnt know most of them as they were all from her CCA. Some of them were preparing food while some were blowing balloons for decorations.

What can I say? Everyone was so cooperative. In the end , Audrey was late for 30 minutes. When Audrey came , some of her friends were hiding in the room, so me , shena , huiyi and Xinyi lured her to a room and we started to talk as if we weren't planning anything. While we were chatting , the other people who were hiding rushed out to decorate the living room. haha...When everything was ready , we took audrey out. She had sort of expected it though.. But when all her friends jumped out , she had a shock of her life coz she didn't expect it ...heee...

The rest of the day was filled with fun and games. heee..They played twister and "zhong ji mi ma" with all the leftover food...haha.. Thank God I didn't Kana anything , otherwise I will have to eat the normal food mixed with weird combination of sauce.

3rd of Aug

It was a super super busy day for me. I travelled to loads of places. First , I went to Liat tower to do a mystery shopper survey for burger king. Later , I travelled all the way to Raffles Place to deliver the food to Huiyi. heee..Then we went to China Square for my fav Teh Tarik Drink. I simply love it!!! We chatted a while there before I left for another destination , GoldenHill centre at Novena to collect my handphone. In case some of you don't know ...hee.. the blur princess had once again wet her handphone. It is no longer under warranty and I had to pay 70 dollar for the repair...

After that , I went to Marine Parade to meet Jingting to have a talk with her since she seemed troubled recently. We went for a walk round Marine parade and ate waffle at Gelera...haha..Yummy once again...Not forgetting my burger king survey , I bought another meal for Jingting. Later I took a bus with Jingting to Eunos before changing bus to Kovan for my tuition. It was super tiring for me as the two brats didnt do their homework again....and i have to let them do in the classroom. But I had fun with Cindy and Xinyi later during supper at the prata shop....hee....Me and Cindy shared Mutarbak....We kept giving it to Xinyi although she said she was dead full. My long day ended with a long walk home from Kovan.....