突然好想做回我自己...: May 2006

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Will I ever ?

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Me and joy ...

Me , joy and Jen

Good Day - The Click Five

I woke up early in my hotel room
Wait for my alarm to go
I think about the things
I've gotta do

Damn my mind is gonna blow
I'm freaking out about what's ahead
Maybe I'll just stay in bed
Cause it's no fun to be the one
Going out of my head
So I tell it to myself again

You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
But what can you say
You're gonna have a good day

I quit my job about a week ago
Told them that I need some time
Now I'm going strong on Lexapro
Doctor says I'm doing fine
I'm freaking out about what's ahead

Maybe I'll just stay in bed
Cause it's no fun to be the one
Going out of my head
So I tell it to myself again

You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
But what can you say
You're gonna have a good day

Just when I thoughtI couldn't lose
I realized it's the only thingI knew
OhI'm freaking out about what's ahead
Maybe I'll just stay in bed
Cause it's no fun to be the one

Going out of my head
So I tell it to myself
Tell it to myself
Tell it to myself again

You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up you'll lose your mind
There's always something in the way
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
But what can you say

You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
But what can you say

You're gonna have a good day
You're gonna have a good day
You're gonna have a good day

Grrrrrrgg...

Just finished watching SAW.on my lappie...At first, I thought it was not as good as SAW II. However, the ending totally caught me off-handed....

Whoossh.. quite a gory movie though , but it really kept the suspense going...

Well, some questions came to my mind as I watched the movie...

Imagine that you are kidnapped by a psychopath to an isolated room. When you wake up, you find that you are chained to a pipe. As you look around the room, you see a stranger who is also chained to a pipe at the opposite end of the room. The psychopath communicates with both of you through an intercom.

He has kidnapped your family and your family will be killed if you fail to fulfil your task.

Your task is to kill the stranger in the room and you have only 2 hours to decide. The instruction can only be heard by you and not the stranger as he is deaf.

In the middle of the room, there lies a gun which is not within the reach for both of you. The only way for you to get the gun is to break off the chain.

The psychopath gave further instruction and you manage to find a saw. However, you realise that the saw was not strong enough to cut through the chain. The saw is meant for you to cut off you leg in order to get the gun to kill the stranger.

Assuming that the psychopath will carry out what he promise (ie. kill your family) , will you saw off your leg and get the gun to kill the stranger to rescue your family?

Interesting ....

Imagine once again that you wake up and find yourself wearing a iron mask on your face. The iron mask will snap 30 minutes later and will cause you to bleed to death.

Again , you are given a task. In the middle of a room , there lies a man under anesthesia. The key for you to unlock the mask is in the stomach of the man.

Minutes have passed.

And you have 10 minutes left.

Will you take the knife and cut open the man's stomach to get the key to free yourself?

Now you know why I say the movie is gore... :P

Don't be quick to give a decision. Search the answer within your heart.

Some people are greatful to be alive, but not you... not anymore. (heee.. right from the movie... )

Yummieeeeeee…..

Had a sumptuous meal at Ichiban. :P

The ambience was great and the food was delicious.

It was worth taking an illegal two hrs lunch break today.

The only thing which was out of place was the company… hahah.. Just joking: P

Met up with Uncle Weiyang (Dillon) for lunch. It has been a long time since I last saw him.

Three, four months maybe? Not sure exactly either.

Nevertheless, it was nice catching up with him. Really appreciate the effort he puts into our friendship although I know he is always very busy with his ministry. Realised we are quite similar in our eating habits. We both love to eat seaweed salad and chawabushi!

*Grin*

I had a good talk with him regarding certain issues today.

Several thoughts came to my mind…thoughts, which I had discarded at the back of my mind. Every past memory, which had drowned, seems to resurface today. I guess, I am sort of “forced” to face up certain controversies. But then again, I seem to forget some of the reasons, which I stand up strongly for. Somehow, they just disappeared. Maybe I have no more wish to confront those issues anymore. I don't want to be trapped in a dilemma again. I am contented with my life now. Period.

Everything ended with a good note today. I appreciate him for accepting me for who I am.

It has been a great blessing to have an uncle like him. :P

I love my job !!!

Yippee! Went for my 2nd shadowing trip today!!

FUN FUN FUN!!!

Blessed with a good mentor, kenneth!! At first ,I thought I would not be able to communicate with him since he is a canadian... In the end , I realised he is quite corny... Faintz Faintzz Faintzzz... I learnt quite a lot from him. Well, hmm.. where should I start ...

I guess his way of working is quite different from the rest of the educational psychologists since he is from overseas. He taught me about flexibilty and the importance of a good relationships with the school personnels. He cleared many of my doubts and presented me the reality of the world. Free lunch during the school trip is a plus plus plus...I simply adore him ( as my mentor)!!!

Today's shadowing was quite fruitful..Saw the real life administration of the Wisch IV and WORLD intelligence test.. it was quite funny though to hear the answer given my the pupil....

Funny Funny Funny...

There was one question which goes like this..
What will you do if you see black smoke coming out of the house?

And guess what...

The boy shouted... BLACK BIRDS BLACK BIRDS..

I nearly laughed my head off... hee...

Today was the first time I saw a mother cried because Ken recommended her son to a learning school as her son has a learning disorder.... :(

Blab.... Busy busy busy...

Ken told me an interesting story today...

One day , a teacher, a psychologist and a child were travelling in a car when the car broke down. As a result, the teacher had to come out of the car to change one of the tyres. After he unscrewed the bolts , he put them in a box on the road. Suddenly another car came by and splattered all the bolts on the road. The teacher and psychologist did not have any idea of how to secure the tyre without the bolts. In the end , the child gave an ingenious solution. If it was you, what will you do?

heee... Guess the solution which the child gave?

Tada....Unscrew one bolt from each of the tyre and use it to secure the tyre without the bolt...

Ain't he ingenious ... and the amazing thing was that the child did not even know how to brush his teeth as he has low IQ level... hee...

So is creativity and intelligence correlated?

That is a controversial issue....:P

"To Where You Are"

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory's so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be (?)

That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant starI wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there

A breath away's not far
To where you are
Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday'
]Cause you are my
Forever love

Watching me from up above
And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you areI know you're there

A breath away's not far
To where you are

ting ting driving...

me in ting ting's car..

ting ting...

us again...

dearie friends....

cheeky and smiley

Car Car Cousins!!

HAppie Bday!

I once had a perfect vase.

Most of the people loved it because it brightened up their days.

One day, someone came along and broke it.

I cried for days and days.

The vase remained broken.

People who once loved it didn't even cast a glance on the broken pieces.

Months went by, and realisation sets in.

I thought the vase could be mended.

Pieces and pieces, bit by bit,

I tried to fix it back.

When it was completed, cracks were still seen.

Deep in my heart , I knew it can no longer be perfect again.

Nevertheless, I was contented and cherished it.

I thought the same thing will never happen again ,

Until the same person came along to break it again.

The vase was shattered into more pieces than the previous time.

It hurts more deeply this time.

But I told myself never to shed a tear.

I finally realised that the vase can never be mended again.

I no longer wants a broken vase...

I never want to learn to trust again.

A busy busy day...

No work today because the whole department has an outing today...

Went for a swimming lesson taught by Dr leung today... She is Great teacher!!! heeee... of coz, all Psy students are great, just like me. Heee...

Felt so tired after the lesson... Yawnzz.. took a short nap before I went for my tuition today...After that , I rushed off to Suntec to meet Dearie Peiying and Layhwa...Tired Tired Tired...

Now for a serious note... I really can't understand why it is so F. hard for people to keep secrets...SECRETS WHICH THEY PROMISE TO KEEP! Can't people just keep their bloodly mouths shut? Certain things are meant to be kept at heart , not to be treated as a discussion or gossip.

I'm really sick of everything!

Gals nite out!

Went out with dearie Linda and Nee Nee today...

Yippee ...it has been a long long time since we met!!! I missed them so much!!!

Was supposed to go shopping after our kopi talk at starbucks... but Linda started vomitting halfway through.

Scared me and Nee to death. She was so pale after she vomitted and not just once but about 5-6 times. In the end, we had no choice but to take her to see a doctor.

Thank God she is ok now.. Yippeee....Shall msg her later to remind her to eat her medicine...

:P