A test of faith, i supposed. It's hard to concentrate when you know you are going to do bad for a certain exam, and real bad. Been thinking about it all night, even today. It's hard not to think about it. Even my optimism tells me I wont be able to make it this time. Although i have faith , but it is still hard especially when i had studied for it. Who can i Blame? No one , maybe myself for taking this module? For majoring in Psy ? It's hard sometimes when you cant seem to find a reason why you dont do well. I guess i will need to study extra hard for my health psy. Although i got 83 for my midterm but when i saw the distribution of score yesterday, it was just average. There are people who get 90 plus...OMG!!! Never underestimate people who are yr3 and 2 .. Now i guess i will need to mug now.. Real hard...

Well, today was a bad day. The exam was real difficult...very very difficult. That was not the only thing. I had repeated a same mistake. Not sure why , i had told myself right at the beginning not to commit the mistake . In the end , i freaked out and did exactly was i was not suppose to do. I guess i will do real bad for the exam ..Very very bad... May even fail..But i guess everyday is a learning phase to me. I feel sad..But i guess God wants me to learn something from it. I guess all i can do now is to pray hard.. that i will at least pass the exam overall

Well, today was a bad day. The exam was real difficult...very very difficult. That was not the only thing. I had repeated a same mistake. Not sure why , i had told myself right at the beginning not to commit the mistake . In the end , i freaked out and did exactly was i was not suppose to do. I guess i will do real bad for the exam ..Very very bad... May even fail..But i guess everyday is a learning phase to me. I feel sad..But i guess God wants me to learn something from it. I guess all i can do now is to pray hard.. that i will at least pass the exam overall

Praise the Lord! My friend just checked my Ca marks for Health psy and I got 83% . It was a close shave. I didnt really have confident in it. Feel so consolated now after my disappointment on my social work essay. Tomorrow is my Stats exam. Feel so scared now. Sorry for being thick skinned...My birthday is Coming!!!! Can you all grant me a small birthday wish ? Give me 2 hours of your life on Sunday after exam. It will be the best birthday present i ever received. Thanks in advance!

Just checked my email for my social work essay grade. It was bad. Real bad. I got b- for my essay which is 32%. I hope my exam for social work today will pull up my overall grade. It was a tough paper though. Now i can understand how people feel when they dont do well for their essays. But i am glad that i got the result after my social work exam. Well, i guess now i can only pray real hard. This semester sux. All the modules i take seem so easy to score and i had even stop going on msn to spend more time studying..but the my results are worst than last sem. I just dont understand why.The feeling is bad when you have put in effort for something but you dont get what you want. Is this really life? I am so confused now. Haven been studying since i come home. Mind kept spinning around. I hope things will be better tomorrow....

Just got back from school..So exhuasted now. Today's philo paper was INTERESTING ! REAL INTERESTING! Well, most of the questions need reasoning , just like comprehension. Well, this posed a real problem to me because i am a unreasonable person. hmm...Can an unreasonable person ever learn to reason? of course not. heee...Anyway , i saw Howard today. I cant imagine him taking philo.. Gosh! i didnt know that he take philo until today ...Haha.... He's graduating soon and forsaking his first class honour in bizad...Brave act , man...There is an interesting question in the philo paper today. If i said " where there is shame , there is always fear " and i ask you to draw a model on this statement ...Will you draw a big circle labelled shame and a small circlc inside labelled fear ...Or will you draw just one circle with the word fear and shame inside it? I truly have no answer to it...haha..Not going to tell you what answer i should though...Coz me, myself dont even know whether i am correct...Time to sleep....nites to all! Happy mugging...Looking forward to celebrate Jamal's bday...

Feminism

In case you people don't know, I am an absolute advocator for feminist movement. Not that I hate male, but sometimes the inequality which exists in some societies really pissed me off. Even in Singapore, who can say that there is absolute equality? Well, the answer is obvious. Take for instance, a child who is born by a Singaporean mother who is married to a Non Singaporean father cannot have a Singaporean citizenship. This is not the case for a Singaporean father who is married with a non Singaporean woman. That is so unfair. It seems to infer that we, WOMEN, are second class citizen as compared to the man. Well, when man plays around with relationship, it is deemed as just a way of life which a man has to go through BUT when woman fools around, she is labeled as slut or bitch. Not that I encourage promiscuous behavior, but there should be at least some fairness. If man expect woman to be faithful, they should be too, that is what we call fairness and equality.Well, I guess I can hear some men grumbling now about us not doing NS. Well, I guess that the strongest argument against them being treated unfair. Damn... have they ever thought about the emotional and psychological imbalance we have every month when we have menstruation? (Sorry for being crude, but I’m a bio student so I’m used to it) I guess most women would rather have NS instead of menstruation. Well, I have to admit that men do suffer too due to the stigma of the society. They have to carry the burden of being the breadwinner of the family and have to be strong in terms of emotional aspect which means to say , they are not allow to cry , at least not in the open. But I guess they bought it upon themselves. Their innate nature to rule over us women have bought about these phenomenons, so I do not really feel sorry for them. Well, that my own opinion. Sorry if I have offended some of you guys but that's just how life is.....

Grinning Gecko From Far 

My Nice Scenary of NUS 

Just woke up from my nap...Feel so sinful now. Slept at 12 am yesterday . But i wasnt studying before..Sobzzz.. was watching my fav show.."twilight Zone" ...I am died...Whenever i want to study socialwork , my mind will automatic switch to sleepy mode..And try to convince me that it is time to sleep..OMG! CA marks for my health psy will be out on Tues....Social work essay will be out most probably tomorrow...PLease let me do well....PRay for me!

That's me! Banana! 

Humour! 

I will be taking a big risk by not studying for philo. Pls pray for me that i will be able to brave through it. Well , i do have some logic for not studying it.

Firstly, the language used is too superb for a simple-minded princess like me.

Secondly, i dont have time.

Thirdly , it is a subject whereby it is either you know or you dont. There is no compromisation.

Fourthly, I always fall asleep when reading.

Well, i am not very optimistic about the exam this semester. Although i have more time this sem, my results are worst than last. I am expecting 2 C which means there will be a great fall in my CAPS. I'm not sure what wrong with me nowadays. I feel like a different person. I guess if i am the old me, i should be mugging now instead of blogging. Whatever it is, can someone pls tell me not to give up?


Laughters of the day
When you look into the mirror and see a ugly person, Remember ...it is not you who is ugly but it is the mirror which is faulty.....

Is your heart heading towards where you are building your treasures or are you building treasures upon where your heart is?

Well , i guess most of you should know by now we are gonna have TWO casinos instead of ONE. One situated at Marina south and another at Sentosa when the resorts are ready. This makes me ponder for a while. Is it some psychology gimmick which government is playing ? It was rumoured to be one at first, just one . Now there are two. Could it be that if they had announced TWO and if there is any strong objection, they can suggest building one instead to appease the citizens as a accomodating request? Of course, unless you have any relatives working in the government , you will never know. Well, now there are plans to try to implement programmes to help those people who are highly addictive to gambling to manage their habits well...Well, Im not saying that leopard will never change its spot, well, leopard surely wouldnt change its spot , but the point i am trying to bring across here is that even with the preventive strategy being in place , it may not be enough. Is there no other way other than building of casinos? I am sure our leaders can come out with better plans. But i guess since the plans have been fixed , there are no way to change it. Let's all be brainwashed by the media that the 2 casinos will bring more benefits than harm......

To those who feel weary and tired of the upcoming exams...

Matthew 11: 28-30

28“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Tired.. As usual...Went to school again today. There is always a thousand and 1 things I want to do, but time just flies so fast. Met with Bee tze and ruth to discuss exam papers today. Wei yang, Hoiting and Grace joined us too. We took the whole day to discuss 2 exam papers. Then finally , we cleared most of our doubts and left some for Chua Fook Kee to clear. Well, he didnt help me much though.. Drained more of our energy. Made us think instead of just pure giving us the answer...Arrrrggg!!! Thank God Beetze and friends are proactive. For me, I just totally switched off and absorbed whatever they discuss.After the discussion , I met with Jamal to study... As usual, he is late.. But he is quite sweet. Offered me a Sri lanka panadol for my flu today. By the way , my flu got worse. Immune system down....Help! Something was supposed to make me sad today. Got back my essay for philo and i didnt do well... But i dont really feel sad though ..Not sure why..Calm as the sea...Im so tired now. Just ate prata with my parents. Was supposed to be supper for them , but it was dinner for me...I m drained now.....Zzzzzz...Need go mug...

The Flu Caught me! SobZZZz!

It was a long day today.. long long long.. Reached school around 1 plus and didnt start studying until 2. The Wan tan Mee i ate during lunch today was ...Well .. satisfactory... I spent 20 minutes quening up for it though...Met Jennifer along the corridor today.. It seemed like a long time since we met up with each other. It was great to see her! Jennifer and i just have a special connection. We just understand each other so well although we dont really spend time together. She is a very good soul mate indeed. She looked pale today though. Told me she blank out in the bathroom today. Too stress i supposed. Hope she is feeling better right now. Will pray for her.

Today wasnt quite fruitful. Went indepth to study for my social work. Studied only lecture notes only. Haizzz ... Not sure where all my time went to... Im so tired now....Need eat my dinner...when it is almost morning.. To all the people i love...Nites

A Day

i like penning down thoughts , but often i think faster than i type and a lot of details got lost somewhere , somehow. That's how i talked too. I just cant stand going into details, lengthy and troublesome. hah.. so now u all know why i always talk about things out of the world. Some parts in my speech is missing and i cant bother to retrieve it back. But what the heck .. Life is a mystery and i cant unravel it for you. But it's amazing how your close friends can just understand you and even predict what you are going to say next. It's just like they can read your mind. Interesting, isnt it?
Going school for a study marathon later with shena and huiYi . Who want to join us ? Will be at the journal section because She na wants to.........that's a secret. Anyway, to all out there , have fun mugging. LOve ya!

Revelation

Tears dwelled in my eyes again when i was in church today. I guess most of the time i attend church , i will be touched by those powerful sermons. But this time, the tears which came rolling continuously were very differemt from those i usually shed. I walked down the aisle today. The first time in Brighton Church. Actually , to be frank, i didnt wanted to go at first, but since Biyun asked me, so i obliged to her request. I hate walking down the aisle , not sure why. The fear is unexplainable. In my previous church which i had attended for about 3 years, I had only walked down the aisle twice. Once for the altar call and another time for a much-needed prayer in my life. Those were the only time. This time, when i was there , standing , I was quite calm. But when Tricia started to pray for me, tears just came. I just couldnt control it. I just felt the holy spirit overwhelmed over me. When she prophesized for me, it seemed like God talking to me. Things which i had held back for a long time. My reluctance . My stubborness. My everything. Everything seemed clear to me all of a sudden, things which me , myself dont even realised. But she had listed all the things , one by one. It was a powerful prayer. A lot of people had prayed for me before, but this was the first time i felt this way. Suddenly i felt that i have the strength to withstand all temptations to sin. Things may not be a rainbow for me, but i am sure with God, i will be able to brave through all the challenges.

Celebration

alone in the rain


I love this photo and since it rained today, so i decided to upload it.

Today was a long day. I went back to Nus to study. Huiyi was supposed to me to pass up her essay but in the end, i guess she didnt managed to finish. Anyway, i studied with Shena and Audrey. The duck rice which Audrey bought was yummy. I just love it. Did a few stats questions. Quite challenging though. Thank god it is a open book test which means we need no memorise formulae.

Went for Edmen's Bday after a long day of study. I was supposed to meet Charmaine , Radhika and Diana at 615pm. Thank god i didnt arrive early because Radhika and Diana arrived at 730pm due to unforseenable circumstance. haha. Lucky Charmaine was there to accompany me. The party was fun but i guess for a 21st bday, it was not so memorable because Edmen's friends seemed glued to X-box and were playing it all along. For us, we were busy taking photos and catching up on our lives. Xinyi and leehua smashed cream all over Edmen's face...i guess that the most happening thing that happened. Other than that, i guess it all seemed like a normal bday celebration. Left at around 9 plus , and here i am blogging again. Anyway , i guess i need to do my stats past yr paper soon....Nites to all!

My goal tonight is to finish my Stats Revision! To know everything at my fingertip! Pray for me!

ups and Downs

After the psy test yesterday, i had a long talk with one of my close friends in NUS who had been missing in action for sometime. Indeed, life was HAPPENING for her these few weeks, or should i should i say, things had taken for a worst turn in her life? Friends whom she had just been aquainted with was bringing her more trouble than she had ever imagined. Friends who she thought she can depend on suddenly turned their back on her. Things were tough for she, i guess. Even people whom dont know her have started to doubt her character. Personally, i feel all the things which she were accused of were not totally her fault. Basically , i guess Man would often based their judgements without finding out the real truth. Even if it turns out that the truth doesnt coincides with their perceptions, they would rather shape the truth to fit into their perceptions instead of shaping their mindsets. Well, i guess that's just human. I admit i do commit that mistake too sometimes, refusing to admit i am wrong when the truth slammed right in front of my face. I am a human too. But i guess as long as the world keeps revolving, we will still continue to live a life like that.

Just look through my exam time table. Exams start on the 25th. Well, 1 week to study for 5 exams. My mum was asking me when is myholiday today and she was shocked to find out that it is a 3 months holiday. haha.. I guess she is scared that i will stay at home and rot. But i already have plans. I want go work for 2 months then go on a holiday and cruise. Anybody want join me? I want holidays to come faster !

end of Torture

The BIG test is finally over. It was so stressing. 1oo questions in just 1 hr. At first, my friends and i thought it was 2 hrs. Gosh were we shocked to find out it was only one hr on the spot. Basically , there was no time to recheck. You only have time to read through the question and answer the question. Any repeat reading of question would be an opportunity cost for other question. Well, the test was So-s0. I saw Toothpaste in CBLC in YIH today,but i didnt talked to him as he seemed busy. Once again, me and xinyi went piggy eating at MUnchie monkey. We had a treat from the staff of Munchie Monkey today. Intially we wanted to buy Caesar Salad and Italian Chocolate cake..And guess what..We got the italian Chocolate cake for free, with an extra brownie cake. Yummy! Mui cun and Sihui was there with us too, not to mention Yaodong. Too bad christine has to leave early and wasnt there to share our treat. Poor her....

The LAst Sprint

wow! I'm so confident about tml test. Fifty percent. I bet i will score just full marks!Everything is at the tip of my fingers. Shoot me any question and i can give you the answer even without thinking. Life is so wonderful! The angels are singing in the air...


AS IF

I was trying hard to read through everything in the library today. But all the things which i had covered last few days seemed to have gone down the DRAIN ! And i mean real down at the bottom pit ! So many terms to memorise, so many theories , so many topics , so many chapters. It's amazing how little time i have and YET i am still blogging now. C'mon ... i need a life too. I had a real busy day in school or was it? Attended just one social work lecture which turned out to be real useless and a absolute waste of time since i was talking all along. Next, came lunch. Nothing productive too. Then the worst thing was ...I still had tuition. I am so exhausted now, to the point of just wanting to lie down and sleep. But , I CANT. I need to mug !!!!!! Thanks to my sleepiness yesterday that i fell asleep while studying. Now , i am suffering from whatever you call. RETRIBUTION. Whatever. I guess the only consolation i had is the yummy soup which my mum left for me....

Study MArathon

Going for a study marathon now and taking this precious short break. I just wonder whether i will last through the night. I guess i will sleep through social work lecture later but who cares ? I mean social work is so self explanatory and the only reason i am going to school tml is to pass Mun some photostated stats tutorial answer. GUess What! Mr DEar Alvin is watching Soccer while Some of US are MUGGING so hard late into the night. What a wonderful life he have as compared to this stupid stress life we all have. Just cant stop envying him. Yeah! edmen's Bday is just around the corner. Cool! Going to his house for diner on Sat ! Horray! Time for relaxation!

Prayer

Bitterness, anger , anguish and whatever there is in me. Sometimes, i just dont understand why i feel the way. Probably when i cant acheive my goals. I hate it when things are not the way i think they will turn out as i had expected. To tell the truth, i am a very selfish person. I like to spend a lot of time to myself, just doing what i like. I hate it when i have to spend extra time correcting something. Just a simple mistake can depressed me the whole day. I hate heavy responsibility , it gives me stress everytime. I know i am here for a purpose in Him. But sometimes, i just couldnt help to feel the way i am now. An sms came just now from someone whom i barely know and i guess it is His reply to me. Now i understand why i feel this way. Not sure why , but when i saw the sms , tears came flowing into my eyes. He is really an Almighty lord, giving me strength to carry on in whatever i feel like giving up. i hope to be a better person in terms of spiritually and psychologically or even emotionally to fulfil the purpose in me

Directions

i woke up this morning with a damn lousy mood. Not sure why, i suddenly just felt like i couldnt finished studying. When i revised for the previous chapters which i had studied previously, it just seemed like they had never been encoded in my mind. Stress forced me to avoid studying by going to sleep. Even when i amd sleeping, i kept thinking about what i had studied. I refused to wake up, just lie there trying to pretend i am in at least for a period away from everything. Sometimes, i just hate myself for giving so much stress to myself. But i just cant help it. I need stress to function. Dont tell me what to do. It is not what i want to hear.

Chocolate iNdulGence

Finally studied one chapter of my health psy.. one of the boring chapters in the book about smoking. Arts library had a lot of people today.. all mugging so hard ..WoW .. it really spurned me to work hard ... Bought some chocolates to encourage myself...heee.. i just love chocolate...But of coz i am not a selfish person...Shared with Ruth, Peiyun, Gab , Shena and Audrey...These 2 brands of chocolate are highly recommended by the world Best chocolate taster....one and only...CHIA LIQING :P

A Silent Prayer

Exams are coming and i can feel the stress in everyone i met. Decided to write a prayer to God to take away the sorrows.

Dear heavenly Father,
I prayed that during these period of anxiety and stress , you will bless all the friends i know with the right mood to study, not to feel despondent and to feel yr love whenever they feel like giving up. I prayed that as they study , things which seemed difficult will be grasped by them easily and things which they had already studied will be entrenched in their mind until after the exams.

Dear heavenly father , i sensed some uncertainty among my friends about the future and things which are bothering them which they feel they couldnt share. I prayed that you will guide them to the door open to them and not to dwell at the closed door anymore. I prayed that they will feel your love and be willing to share their burdened load with you , for i know that you will always be there to carry their loads and to touch their heart , for you are Almighty Lord. I prayed that you will guide my friends who need to make some right decisions in their lives now which seemed to place them in a dilemna. I prayed that you will guide them to the answer to their problems and give them strength to carry out whatever decision they make.

Dear heavenly Father, i thanked you for all things you have blessed me with, all the angels whom you have sent to give me strength to carry on to whatever i want to do. Thanks for letting me experience yr love again.

In Jesus name , i pray. Amen

Sunny

Just came home from Singapore Post... was studying at the coffee bean after church today...find myself indulging in the conversation of a group of teenagers next to me...They seemed to resemble me when i was young.. talking about crushes and love. Bought back so many wonderful and cute memories of me when i was young. Felt like laughing when i heard their conversation... not that i want to hear but they were chatting so loudly like nobody's business. Time seemed to pass very fast today. Guess what..Biyun gave me a card today..Very nice. But i destroyed the whole card by insisting i want to design the card, putting glitter everywhere.. haha.. she was so disgusted by me... heee.. but that just me...Met David yeo today.. din realised it was him until my friend told me.. But what the heck! i dont watch tV and i dont even care who he is .. too bad... he din managed to charm me.. hahaa... I didnt hit my target today.. studied on chapter only...studying soon...Nites to all...

Ocbc

Was studying just now when my sis played a Cd by Josh Graham...Was humming along to "you wake me up" when thoughts of the past came sneaking into my mind. Classical conditioning i supposed.. i will think of my friends in OCBC whenever i hear this song. All the fun i had in banking enterprise... Would think of Sally who took great care of me. And Joseph, the most ideal man in my life.. Woohooo...too he is married. Through OCBC , i also got aquainted with people whi were a older than me. Some had just graduated from NUS ...heeee...Still remembered tat time we went to one of their pent house to celebrate her Bday...Very fun.. Missed them so much... Eliss is getting married soon... haha.. WAs so sad when i left the department to work in the marketing department. Life is so slack for me there.. aRRRggG!!! Every full time workers seemed so stressed. Dont really like Angeline ( the person in charge of me at lst) but after working for her for sometimes, i find that she is quite a nice lady.... And magdeline tooo... How could i forget her? haha.. Funny lady.. Always telling me about life....And tiffany.. who hates working there...and clarence .. who had to leave for poly earlier than us... Left me there. with no companion anymore..got to know Martha and Xiao yan too.. heeeeee.....Just love working there... Of coz not to mention Sean and Adrian aka toothpaste...Dont really know sean that well except that he smokes? hahah... And yok kwang who kept sending me funny emails...heeee....Dont believe i work there half of my holidays.. Wow.. Time really flies....

Take a bREak ! Have a Kit KAt! 

i Skipped Sch again

Not sure why, this sem i Seemed to be missing a lot of lectures...Real lot....Been only Twice to health psy and Philo, almost 3/4 for social work and slightly less for GEk and Stats. Hmm..That is bad..Exams are cuming..Only realised it today when i thought about how many lectures i had attended. Didnt attend stats lect today. 2 weeks in a row...Felt so guilty because it was the last lecture and i didnt do well for my lst stats test..But rest assured i will work real hard for my stats..got into the mood of studying recently..I Love it...Woohooo.....Meeting joanne later to study....Gtg...although i know she will be real real late..like she always do....

Muggers' poStEr For Nusian 

Lie

During Gek class,

Annoymous : Hey , have you studied for health psy?

Qing : Ya. Have to what....So many chapters...Learn already keep forgetting. 17 chapters leh...

Annoymous : Huh...dont scare me . I haven study leh. Starting on Sat.

Qing: Oh ok...jiayou!!

30 minutes later......

Annoymous: The research methods are important right?

Qing: Ya. The lecturer said for essay, not mcq i guess

Annoymous: Hey , you know some of the chapters in the health psy book are related to GEK ....I studied those first. Quite interesting.

Qing: Oh...ok...(with deep thoughts in my mind of what she had said 30 min ago) i haven studied those yet. I started from the front.

To those who still haven get the gist of the story, it is ok...Dont understand why people like to lie....Blab!! It is so hard to keep up with a lie......:(

went to Jennifer's bloggie juz now and found an interesting webbie for slogan....heee...Can give it a try....this is what i got!

The Coolest Liqing on Ice.

what about toothpaste?


It's a Beautiful Toothpaste.


For those who are interesting , you can try it at http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi?word=toothpaste . Have fun!!!

A fairy land in the Cupboard

CINDY IS FINALLY BACK!!!! Cool! haven seen her for months since she went back Indonesia. Really missed her a lot. She seemed more feminine with her long hair..Heeee, Xinyi was comparing her hair length with her all the time... Funny ... Well , of course , mine is the shortest so i couldnt fight with them...SoBzzzz....I am so damn stressed now... Arrrgggg!!!! dont ask me why... I hate being stressed... i mean who loves? So many things to do and so little time...Sometimes, it is not that i dont want to study more, but i am a human! I need a rest too....I hate it when things come all at once. I hate myself for not having discipline. Arrrrgggg!!!! I guess all i can do now is pray and to PRAY HARD. I believe God will be there to support me. I will always find joy in sorrow.

Just wanted to share something which i had learnt a few days ago. THE ABUSE OF LANGUAGE.

People often abused the statement "I cant". Whenever they said "i cant do this or that" , it means that they wont do it . Not that they cant because all things are possible. Take for example, Jane said that she cant forgive Ben for cheating on her but the fact is she won't , not she cant. I guess i often make the same mistake too. Whenever i said i cant do something, it just means i wont put in more effort to do it. Therefore, i guess it need to learn to develop myself in that direction.


Impossible = I M Possible

Brand nEw Start?

Cut my hair real short toDay...Gosh! i looked like a guy now. I hope Siyuan dont recognise me when he see me In NUS.. haha.. tat a joke.. i din cut my hair for him.. he is not that great. I just hate hair which is neither long nor short. Always wanted to have long hair .. but what the heck.. i m too impatient...Long hair makes me looks messy... Exams are cuming... No time for maintenance at all... Had a real heart pain just now while i was sleeping... Kept thinking about my health psy test... So many chapters and i have less than 1 week to study... I guess the tolerance level for panadol had increased. Ate 2 juz now but it was futile.. so i ate 2 more... Now my head still feel painful...Stressed i supposed... Stats tutorial tml.. I haven study 1 more chapter.. About power of the alpha...Cant get it into my mind....I guess i will read them on the bus ride tml... Kana 22 virus in jus a few days...Arrrggg!!!! June's Blog is infested with Virus...I cant clear it.....These few days seemed like a dream to me...A lot of things had been happening.. Misunderstanding cleared except for Siyuan.. but i guess there is nothing i can do about it...I guess i m slowly forgetting toothpaste...heeee... haven been contacting him for a long time....That's a good sign...woooHoooo!!!!!! Time to study the damn health psy!!!!

The Trio pyramiD 

Cheese to the side 

Outside the esPlanade 

Problems?

Heee... glad everything is cleared now. Woohooo....I felt brand new... I love the Air i breathe in now. Thanks friends for supporting me all this while. Now i guess Siyuan is the person i have to answer to....Gosh! To retrieve our friendship or to let go....HMMmmmm... DEad!!! Either way i will feel bad... I guess i can only let time tells everything. Time for mugging... Whoever is reading should too...HWEEsim... Only you are pardoned...Lucky gal!!

God

Attended a church service today...Something which i had not done for ages after i backslided 2 years ago due to some personal reasons which i guess only close friends of mine would know. I had always wanted to go back to God , to be loved and protected by him once again. Well, since i left my church years back , i thought i could stand on my own, without Him. But time and time again, i will catch myself talking to Him, telling Him my problems. He is someone whom i know i can truly rely on , no matter what happen. Ruth took me to a GIG service some time back. I guess she is really a blessing from God, to tell me that He will always be there waiting for me to go back to his embrace again. Ruth had taught me things which i guess makes me know more about His everlasting Love. Today, i let God into my heart once again.. or i should i said he had never left me? I m sure with him around, though i will not be free from sorrows, i will find joy in these sorrows. He will be behind me to catch me when i fall, in front of me to guide me , and beside me to be there for me. An enduring friendship which will last forever.....

Broken Dreams?

Had a talk with my cousin via sms just now, asking him about how his registration for uni was since i haven seen him after he went army. Seemed that he had gone through a lot of disappointment this last 2 weeks. First , he couldnt get for the scholarship he desired, even with his excellent results. Well, i guess that must have been a blow to him. Next, he was posted to Medic which he detested to the utmost. the army must be blind to send him there. I mean he is so sporty and such an atlethic. Just dont understand why life is so unfair. I guess from his sms , i can feel his disppointment ...i mean i will be disppointed if i were him too... Now he is scared that he might not even get into the medicine faculty.

Not sure why, even when i am writing , i felt bothered about something. Something stupid. I just feel so sad now. But i guess that's a stupid thing to be bothered about , so i wont mention it here. But i guess i had predicted that long time ago. Sort of a feeling? Not sure either. Sixth sense i guess. Dont ask me what... i wont tell.. but rest assured it is not about love or studies. All i can said is i had been hurt again. Deeply this time.

a DEcision to be made

Went for the damn meeting today. Huiyi and radhika went with me. It was real shitty. Dont really like siyuan's friends. Looks and sound disgusting like him. Felt like puking. Well , if anyone understand Siyuan , i guess bringing outsiders to join this programme is just his way of having a backup. In case , me n Xinyi leave the centre which we have been planning to do long ago. I m really not interested anymore. I wish i can just leave but i would be deemed as irresponsible. Damn. I guess i will leave after everything stabalises. Did the spreadsheet and was criticised by Siyuan for being vague. but that was how we said we will do it when we discuss it the last time. God damnmit, either he is real dumb to understand or he is blind. Anyway , he did another spreadsheet. Since that is the case , he might do it himself it the first place since, only , he himself, knows what he wants. Now i am supposed to do the Damn letter addressed to parent when i m not very sure what he is talking about. Since he knows it it the lst place , why ask me do? I M NOT GOING TO DO IT. LET HIM DO FOR ALL HE WANTS. Since i guess he will be reediting it all over again after i write the draft. damn!! Trying to show his friends he can do it? Well , his friends addressed him as the chairman today. Well, he can be . i dont mind. Since i will be leaving soon. Really cant stand him. A pain in my ass. Real fuming mad at him. Can anyone help me kill him?